For as long as I can remember I have struggled to be confident. It’s been tough to be confident in my roles as a daughter, a student, a friend, a teacher, a ministry worker, and as a wife and mother. I find it hard to be confident in my skills and abilities in nearly every area of my life. Like many women, I lack confidence in the way I look; in wearing or not wearing makeup, in how I dress, in my body, and especially in dealing with the incurable skin condition Rosacea. I even struggle to find confidence sometimes in who I am in Jesus, and in the gifts He has given me!
There are a few Bible stories and passages that deal with this topic, but one in particular stands out to me when I am struggling to find the confidence I need to juggle and accomplish
all the tasks that each day sets in front of me. I pray that it brings peace to your heart like it has to mine.
We’re taking a trip all the way back to Exodus for this one! Exodus 3:9-11 (NKJV) says: “Now therefore, behold, the cry of the children of Israel has come to Me, and I have also seen the oppression with which the Egyptians oppress them. Come now, therefore, and I will send you to Pharaoh that you may bring My people, the children of Israel, out of Egypt.” But Moses said to God, “Who am I that I should go to Pharaoh, and that I should bring the children of Israel out of Egypt?”
Moses lacked self confidence. He didn’t think he could do what God was telling him to do. He is evaluating himself here, and in his eyes he doesn’t measure up to what he believes a messenger of the Lord should be. I see myself in Moses, because there are times when I ask, who am I? Who am I that I should sing on the worship team? Who am I, that You have trusted me to raise these children? Who am I, that I should write an internet blog and reach out to the world this way? The way God answers Moses is fascinating and beautiful to me.
In Exodus 3:12-14 God says “I will certainly be with you. And this shall be a sign to you that I have sent you: When you have brought the people out of Egypt, you shall serve God on this mountain.” Then Moses said to God, “Indeed, when I come to the children of Israel and say to them, ‘The God of your fathers has sent me to you,’ and they say to me ‘What is His name?’ what shall I say to them?” And God said to Moses, “I AM WHO I AM.” and He said “Thus you shall say to the children of Israel, ‘I AM has sent me to you.'”
God doesn’t give Moses a pep talk and remind him of all his good qualities. He doesn’t flatter him and appeal to his ego. God says, “I will be with you” and “tell them I AM has sent me”
I believe God is saying, it’s not about you! It’s not about who you are, it’s about who I AM. He didn’t ask Moses for his resume and a head shot before giving him the job. Moses didn’t even apply for it! God chose Moses. God gave Moses the job because of who He is, not because of who Moses was.
There is more good news for us! God is the same now as He was then (Hebrews 13:8), and He often deals with us the same way! He didn’t ask for my resume before before blessing me with the task of being a wife and raising children. He didn’t need to call my references before giving me this blog platform. Some of the things He’s assigned me to I never applied for. The confidence to do what He has for me to do doesn’t come from my accomplishments or my looks or my education. It doesn’t come from my personality or my human support system. It only comes from the fact that He is with me and He has sent me. He will equip me and He will help me.
I want you to remember this as you go about your day. Whatever God has given you to do, put your confidence in Him while you do it. Remember that He is with you, and He has sent you to accomplish this task!